Key Points

• Saya dh lama tak blogging
• i'm jobless
• i stop seeking treatment from Prof. Hamid
• Who know how to process/eat the serbuk kurma?
• Where i can get the ovulation test yang muraaaaahhh..:)?i did read some1's blog yang ada jual but i can't remember siapa..sorry!

1st Cycle After Laparoscopy

Dah almost sebulan since i did my laparoscopy.alhamdulillah..segala nya sudah kembali normal.cuma i'm not sure whether i dah boleh start angkat benda2 berat like main bowling bola 10kg? :)

last time,after operation tuh ada keluar darah macam period.but since prof ade buat D&C so it's considered as darah nifas (kot).

so last week was my 1st menses.starting tuesday malam before tido..itu pun keluar like sehelai darah mcm tuh.was2 nk solat atau tak but hubby kate xyah solat..esok nye pun xkuar bnyk.like darah lendir pinkish2 gitu (sorry for being sooo detailing).

dalam hati mcm.."nape malu2 je period nih nk keluar?".xpenah2 ok jadi macam nih.malam second day tuh baru nampak the real and normal darah..before tidur.i dah plan nk call klinik nak tanya whether i should on clomid atau camne tp x jd sbb dh keluar pure darah.3rd and 4th day baru darah keluar melambak2..pakai wing n tukar ikut timing yg betul pun it was like mcm x cukup!hahaha.

but the good thing was i didn't feel any critical pain.takde rase mcm nak terguling2 macam selalu.just few days before period je rase macam sengal2 sikit.that's it.alhamdulliah.

cuma since period starting mcm ting tong sket so i'm not so confident with clomid this time around.timing mcm salah je..ntah blh membesar ke tak telur2 kt dalam tuh.exercise pun dh x brp nk buat..ntah ape yg letih sgt pun xtau la.but we've change our white rice to brown rice.now i dah nk start no rice for dinner.i want to start with dinner brown bread with ham.ingat nak beli yg ada jual lambak kt giant or jusco tp tak terbeli lg!hehehe

supplement yg prof bagi masih ada bnyk lg.x konsisten langsung!kalo ade mood makan..kalo x,buat xtau jela!hehe.

currently,me n my husband are stepping up in new stages in our life.i just resigned from my current job for a better offer.and we're in the process of buying our 2nd house.terjerut rase nye leher masing2..hahaha.but we do not want to stay complacent forever.the decisions made are for a better life of us.

kami mengharapkan yang terbaik drpd keputusan kami nih.if banyak obstacles, mintak2 Allah permudahkan segalanya.

till then!

Speedy recovery

Last wednesday i visited Prof Hamid, utk check balik luka n plan for next action.appointment petang and terlambat plak sampai kt klinik.sampai2 dh ramai org tunggu..rupe2nye prof tak sampai lg.

almost 1 and half hour waited,baru nama saya dipanggil.terus prof nk check luka jahitan saya and nurse yg baik hati tuh tolong guntingkan benang yg ada.x sakit sangat.prof pun kate luka saya ok..xde nanah or watsoeva.lega..

then,cosultation session.macam biase la..motivation utk kurangkan berat badan.both tubes saya dah ok.saya bgtau prof yg saya mcm dah hilang selera..(yela..dah kena berpantang bagaikan).prof kate..maybe kesan bius.tp bagus la tuh!ade plak camtuh..hehehe.saya suka jumpa prof..dia ade sense of humor and fatherly sangat. dr, aimy pun best jugak..senang nk tanya ape2 yg saya x faham.

a'way prof asked us to try natural dlu with bantuan clomid utk 2 cycle.if tak berjaya pregnant jugak,after raya jumpa dia balik.saya pun ada minta prof extend cuti.prof siap tanya nk berapa lama..kalo blh nak sebulan!hihihi.but no..saya just mintak instead of sampai rabu,extend until friday.so monday saya blh masuk office.i'm sure my office-mate mesti surprised nanti sbb saya estimate saya akan MC sebulan.

i asked prof if i can start driving.dia kate boleh..nk start bersama ngan husband pun boleh!hihi.laporoskopi is not complicated as open up operation tuh.

saya balik disertai dengan supplements like habatuss sauda, fish oil and obimin

saya x ikut parents saya pulang ke kampung sbb rasa dah sihat sangat..blh lompat2 lg!:)

boleh temankan husband jugak..sian dia sorang2 kt cnih

makan pun dh tak pantang..except telur and seafood

selera makan dh kembali pada asal..risau dibuatnya

after operation arituh managed to reduce 300g within a week

jgn la naik mendadak balik since i'll be in clomid again...pheww!

till then..

daaa..

Went well!

Alhamdulillah,,saya dh selamat membuat operation di klinik Dr. Hamid last week. 

Now saya kena berehat2 di kampung.

nk start tulis blog utk story psl pengalaman mmg malas sungguh la!hehehe

*entri nih confirm berjela..harap bersabar n kalo x suke blh click X

my operation date was 23 May 2012 (Wednesday)

pagi2 selasa tuh klinik hamid dah call bgtau ape nk kena buat

i'm already took leave utk selasa tuh..saje2 nk rehat

but still pagi2 tuh setelkan n beremailan hal2 keje

so start hari selasa tuh saya dah kena masukkan ubat nama Enema

ubat nih function nya utk bersihkan usus..bg kite buang air besar n kosongkan perot

i bought that ubat from Guardian at Alamanda

time tuh mcm2 i tanya pada pharmasist tuh sbb mcm xsure how to apply ubat tuh..

dia kate kena buat dlm toilet..pancutkan dlm pung****

arahan nurse kate kena buat dlm 7:30~8:00mlm

so after solat maghrib saya buat kt toilet alamanda okehh..

agak susah if compared to tablet yg kena masuk during HSG dlu

right after saya masuk kan..kuar balik n buang air besar sikit je..

yakin x yakin je saya time tuh..tp tawakal jela..

kul 11 last blh makan..pastu kul 12 mlm tuh kena full puasa

mmg lewat tido mlm tuh sbb gelisah (2-3 ari b4 tuh mmg dh susah nk tido)

klinik was expecting me to be at the clinic at 8.30am sbb dia guna system 1st come 1 serve basis

me,husband,my parents and sister awl2 pg dh bersiap

my hub siap sesat lg..sbb leka sgt bercerita psl topik HOTFM time tuh..nama pelik!hahaha

smp klinik around 8:35

lif rosak plak so kena ikut pintu belakang

after register sume,wajib timbang berat

turun sikit!best..hahaha

masa sampai tuh ade sorg patient tp dia kes lain..bkn utk operate

but actually i was no 2 utk operation sbb ade lg sorg dh masuk OT

xlama tunggu after quick check my health and hub isi borang kebenaran sume,name i kena panggil

mmg nervous btol time tuh

nurse bwk g ward,tunjuk and persalinan yg nk kena pakai

dh tukar sume..tinggal robe n operation cap tuh je..with specs!hihihi

my parents masuk skjp je sbb xleh masuk ramai2..

time tuh laju je air mata..xtau nk rasa apa

then membuang for last time..takut x pasal2 terbuang air time tak sedar nnt..hehehe

ada masa skj sgt b4 nurse pgl utk masuk OT

no wheelchair

jalan sendiri and naik atas katil operation..hahaha

betul2kan kedudukan

prof hamid bg injection and penyedut gas..then trus i pengsan

tersedar dlm keadaan mamai time diorg panggil my hub and parents dtg jenguk skjp after operation then pengsan balik...:)

sedar btol2 time sume staff nurse tgh rehat..then on off tertido smp time melawat

time sedar x rase any major pain..myb sbb terlalu berhati2 utk bergerak

but i realized i dipakaikan ngan pad..tight with tali!hahaha

esok tgh hari nye saya dah dicharge

sempat jumpa prof hamid..

dia explain ape yg dia buat during operation which:

a) buang segala kekotoran yg tersumbat-dnc (lemak ler tuh)

b) betulkan kedudukan rahim sikit

c) keluarkan seketul cyst

 

so since takde implantation kena buat,prof tebuk 3 tempat jela..

balik kmpung pantang makan..

mandi pun lap2 je for 3 days

kadang2 langgar jugak pantang mkn tuh..sbb rase mcm dh nak muntah je mkn sup everyday

no mknan lemak2 or pedas2

lum seminggu dah terasa mcm bosan betul sbb x dibenarkan buat any keje

sakit tuh ade sikit..rase bisa n sengal

but yg plg sakit is luka tebukan kat pusat..sbb tmpt sensitif kan

nak2 after dh bukak balutan luka

esok dh kena jumpa doktor balik utk check up..

i got 2 weeks mc and these from my beloved husband

yesterday i got call from HR lady of company yg i apply keje bgtau yg i dpt job yg i g interview dlu..

alhamdulillah..saya percaya

setiap dugaan atau ujian yg Allah bagi pasti akan disusuli dengan rahmat atau rezeki yg terbaik utk kita

mudah2an after pantang duration nih,usaha kami utk dpt kan zuriat mendatangkan hasil

saya bersyukur di kala kami kesusahan nih insan2 terdekat banyak memberikan support especially my hub and parents..

moga2 Allah limpahkan kurnia yang terhingga buat mereka..

terima kasih juga utk doa kwn2 sekalian..

hanya Allah dapat membalas budi baik korang sume..

Love uolss!

daaaa...

Esok adalah harinya..

Hari yang dinanti2 kan penuh debaran akan tiba esok..

takut..

sebak..

semua ada!

Ya Allah..mohon dipermudahkan segalanya!

WW

Credit to Google

Sugar=Fat

Assalamua'laikum

First of all, i would like to thank for all your supportive words. 

maaf, saya tak reply each of your comments sbb rasa helpless sangat. 

but i want u to know i appreciate and it helps me a lot.hugs uols tight!

To-date, after consolidate and discuss with hubs, boss and family, my operation date will be on 23 May 2012..then mc sebulan (yahooo!)

As of now,saya dah start ok cuma perasan skang nih terlebih2 sensitif plak..sume benda tak kena kt mata saya..sian husband.

harap2 dia maafkan saya

ok..now saya nak share something positive

last night me+hubs watched a discovery program at AFC channel

Tajuk dia kalau tak silap..

THE BIG FAT REALITY

quite interesting

story pasal all these while kita disogokkan dengan mitos yang tak benar

basically dia kate,pakar and doctor nowadays pun not really sure what is the best health food practice 

since now people dah start aware psl kesihatan,so everytime kite nk beli any food kite akan cek the ingredients first

otak kita akan automatically reject if yang content banyak lemak

if ikut logik..yes..betul..fat (lemak)=gemuk

but it is good fat

when we're focusing too much pada fat,we use another alternative which we think healthy

but unfortunately, that is not the fact

the highest contributor kepada kegemukan now adalah sugar/carb yang ada dlm white rice,white bread,pasta,kentang (just name a fews yg dia sebut dlm tuh)

all these type of foods contains xxx halus (sori...i x ingat name dia)

mcm dekat afrika..diorg kaya dengan minyak sawit and diorg process the oil manually

then masakan diorang mmg base minyak sawit

yg jd issue di afrika adalah they are not balance

they have minyak sawit,but zat2 lain diorang takde

it's really good info

yes..i know nasi mmg penyumbang besar kepada keberatan badan saya yg amat nih tp buat donno je..tekak melayu la katakan

but smlm dh agree ngan hubs..eat brown rice (matiklamahal) and brown bread

hopefully AFC will repeat the program (usually mcm tuh la kan..hihii)

ok..c later..

daaaa..

Trauma by HSG

Happy Friday!

I took the whole morning today, thinking of the best sentence should i put here.

Sesungguh nya Allah Maha Besar, ini adalah bahagian utk saya

(reminder:this entry might be too long..)

My HSG procedure did not turn well

We arrived at Klinik Daya early in the morning, around 7.50am..

just to ensure any unexpected circumstances

Park at Metro Parking which charged us RM4.00 per hour.

While waiting the clinic's operations hour, kami jalan2 sekitar bangunan DBKL sambil beli light breakfast

Of course la saya takde selera untuk makan

Around 8.10am, i went to the toilet utk masukkan ubat Voltaren Supp which 1 of the reader told me it is to help reduce our pain.

Fortunately it was an easy process

Then i go to the clinic, to check if i can wait inside the clinic (i refer to sum1's entry on this as well)

Bear in mind, there is no chair provided outside the clinic

Be it in DBKL's receiptionist or at pathway

The only area is at bus stand in front of the building

Nasib baik nurse tuh bagi masuk

At that time, we are the only and 1st patient

In my mind.."owh..takde org.boleh je kot datang lambat td..."(underestimate ok :))

We give the appointment letter and wait

The doctor arrived around 8.40am and my name was called at 8:55am

I changed my skirt and panties with robe provided

Siap salah pakai lg...hihihi

Then baring kat atas katil besi and wait for the doctor

rase nye 20-30 min i kena tunggu dia.

when he came,dia "proses" kan bwh kite tuh

Initially i don't felt any pain..because it feels like during my Pap Smear test

lama2..dah start rasa tak selesa, senak and pain

he took a very long time to ensure the equipment get in my womb (correct me if i'm wrong)

he's not rough doing his job but it's really painful

he keep saying..bukaan sempit,cannot go through

at that time i tried my best to give full cooperation..jgn keraskan badan!

then he started stress.he asked for break and will call me again

changed to my cloth..pakai pad

dekat robe tuh ada kena darah i sikit

i keluar2 tgk ramai gile patient tengah menunggu

when i saw my husband's face,terus rasa nak menangis

my hub ajak borak kt luar..then i cerita sambil nangis2

he advised me, if i can't bear it anymore then we just stop

i didn't agree..i'm already halfway and i won't give as that early

after 15 min, my name was called again

this time lebih lama

i can see doktor hampir putus asa

me also start crying sambil baca doa tak putus2

it feels like i was there for the whole day

seksanya hanya Allah je yang tau

conclusion..he already used 3 methods to do the procedure and finally he has some findings

after the session end,i asked from the nurse to give me 2 days mc because i become traumatized 

it's really painful

although the doctor and nurse give compliment for my patience during the procedure being done

actually, for normal process saya just kena ambil result and refer to Klinik Hamid Arshat

but since i'm a special case, the doctor would like to have consultation with me

he said that he did not satisfied with the earlier result

after had longer thought, he found the answer

my tubes were blocked..both of them!

but since he's not O&G doc,so leave it to Dr. Hamid to advise

we went to Klinik Dr. Hamid after we had lunch at Sogo (sempat lunch je)

sampai klinik during lunch hour and need to wait

when the times come, we're the 1st patient as well

Dr Hamid takde,ade emergency case kat Hospital Pantai

so i proceed with Dr. Aimy je

 Dr Aimy pelik my tubes were blocked because i got pregnant just a year ago

how it did happened..Allah je yang tau

if dia tau,awl2 lg dia dh start suruh buat HSG test

However, she give us 2 options since after scan memang takde fibroid

1) Operation - Laparoskopi, D&C, HSG, implant tube if necessary, cost about RM6-6.5k at klinik hamid.if at Pantai RM9k

2) IVF - RM20k but not guaranteed success

when she explained, i start crying

it was unexpected!

I've never imagine, i'll go through all of this

my husband would like to do another HSG test for 2nd opinion

but doc sympathy to me..i'm suffered!

she asked us to think of it and call back after we make decision

From there, i've already found my ultimate goal

i want to cure my root problem and operation is the best

my husband give the 3rd option which adopting child

but i refused

i want my own babies selagi i boleh

i understand my hub's concern

he doesn't me to suffer or in pain

now, we're finalizing the date

takut memang takut...sangat2

but i've to sacrifice and redha dengan ujian Allah

if this jalan yang saya kena tempuh to get babies, i will

i know there are thousand couples yang facing bigger problem than mine

it's just how we manage it

Ya Allah, give me strength to go through all of these

Coming up next..HSG

This morning i went to klinik hamid..dah called few days ago tanya what to do next.

so nurse suruh dtg klinik, amik surat and ubat.

so pagi tadi meredah hujan dan jem yg tak berkesudahan..:p

sampai sana,kt luar dh nmpk banyak gile kasut..masuk2,sah..ramai org!

since not plan to meet any doctor, so i met 1 of the staff

when she checked,rupa nya my referral letter tak siap lg

so kena tunggu japppppp...

when she called,dia tunjuk surat and brief direction to klinik daya

satu hape pun tak masuk dalam kepala saya

because i can't imagine it (saya memang buta sikit jalan2 KL,except jalan2 yg dah biasa lalu)

my appointment is next week, day 10

after dh dpt result HSG,kena terus dtg klinik hamid

then dia tnjk ubat plakkk

"yang nih u kena masukkan 30 min before start HSG.."

"nk masuk kat mane?"

"kt dubur.."

"whattttt?"

"iyer...u jgn masukkan dalam vagina plak"

"errr...sakit tak?..mcm mane nak tau benda nih dh betul2 masuk?"

"ala...buat mcm masuk ubat dlm baby kalo demam tuh.u g toilet..basahkan sikit tablet nih ngan air then u masukkan.since tak biasa then memang akan rasa tak selesa sikit.tak sakit pun..."

"(gulp)...ok"

seriau..pengsan!!

and then dia tunjukkan another ubat utk tahan sakit after HSG and ubat ponstan if continous sakit

total cost today adalah RM21

lupa nk tanya cost utk HSG nnt

my plan now is..if everything ok,saya nak stop dulu from any medication

untill 1 time saya ready for iui

but tak tau la kalo tibe2 berubah hati after dengar advice doc

on hubby's side,he'll always support my decision

because he believed,i'm the one yang akan tanggung efek nya..

more than him

now saya kena google more on HSG

till then..

daaa..

Wordless

Berenang2 dlm bowl kt workstation,lompat2,jatuh kt lantai and mati jd ikan kering

Share

Ada something yang saya mahu share which saya tak suarakan lagi pada husband..

Cuma berlegar2 di kepala saya

Walaupun husband saya dah tunjuk2 hint yang dia suspicious tapi saya buat tak layan je
taknak dia letak any harapan

From last week,not everyday..tp most of nights saya akan muntah2 teruk

tak kisah la before makan atau after makan

usually after makan la..

saya akan start rasa susah nk bernafas

then it goes semua makanan yg saya makan hari tuh berakhir dia toilet bowl

saya tak rasa loya

adala sikit..kadang2

but usually rasa perot menolak2 makanan tuh keluar

benda nih pernah jadi sebelum nih but not continuously la

so bile continuos nih,saya jadi tertanya2..

keep deny..i'm not pregnant berulang kali sebab taknak bagi harapan diri sendiri

lagipun walaupun i took clomid for this cycle but effort BD kami tak seberapa

saya syak it is something else because pinggang belah kanan selalu senak and pinggang belakang selalu lenguh especially time petang (abis keje)

yang saya tau,usually kalau saya sakit2 pinggang nih because of kencing kotor yada yada yada..

tp saya rasa saya minum air dan makan buah lebih dr biasa (lesson learnt from najis berdarah aritu)

my husband concern if pregnant tp ectopic sbb saya sakit2 kan..

tapi saya kata,kalau ectopic mesti lagi sakit sampai rasa ke bahu (itu gynae last pregnancy saya bagitau la)

so agak2 jela tahap kesakitan dia macam mane

i want to seek doc's advice but i don't have kekuatan n kerajinan utk g klinik..hehehe

lagipun,i'm only staff in my unit right now

susah sikit nak tinggalkan ofis

cover utk 3 org punye keje sekali..tp gaji still mcm tuh (eh,emo pasal keje plak..hihihi)

before i proceed further if rajin..i would like to seek opinion kalau sape2 penah mengalami mcm nih..

delusion je ke saya nih?hahaha

Update:Seperti yang saya agak,memang saya tak pregnant la kan.genap2 31 hari..saya period.proceed for next steps

a'way..thank you pada sahabat2 yg memberi kata semangat.saya x buat UTP seperti yg disaran sebab saya x rasa saya preggy plus belum sampai tempoh matang utk cek time tuh.

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Tengok je..jangan terliur plak..:)

Zumba..Finally!

..Berdarah..

Nak tulis tajuk penuh..x sampai hati.

sebenarnye malam td,before solat maghrib saya buang air besar n berdarah.perot sakit2 biase jela..cuma kt pung**** mmg pedih sikit.husband kate kalo buang air lg kita g hospital.dia pun x berani nk sentuh saya since dia tau saya kena camtuh.since both of us keletihan amat sangat,so dua2 tertido..awal!sedangkan saya dh plan nk google dulu psl najis berdarah nih..

so pg td sampai ofis baru leh google..agak mengejutkan bila baca if najis berdarah mybe usus bermasalah.or myb worst..ada la sakit2 yg dia sebutkan tp x ingat.paling teruk is kanser.isk..xpenah saya terfikir sampai ke c2..sbb sepanjang hidup saya, ada la 3-4 kali kena camnih.tp saya assume maybe sebab saya makan pedas..so sebagai ubatnya saya just kurangkan makan pedas.

bile dah baca mcm tuh,saya rasa cuak plak..terpikir nak cek kt klinik but it happened last night.xpe ke?anyone penah ada pengalaman mcm saya?what should i do?

I need strength

2nd cycle kami failed!morning before my hub fly to adelaide baru perasan.nasib baik la x BD pg tuh..eh?:)

nak kate sedih..mmg la sedih tp x sesedih like our 1st time arituh..yg tuh sedih gile kot..dah la hubby xde,ngan stress kj lg..tensi mak!so kali ini,i have my beloved shoulder to cry on..nangis sikit2 then lega.

so already took clomid w/out tvs kali nih..gundah gulana jugak bila makan ubat w/out guidance nih..tp semua ketentuan Allah kan..He can gives or take it back whenever He wants.If tiada rezeki lg,i'm not sure yet what is our next step.maybe kena call klinik tanya..

take care all..

daaa...

WW

2nd Cycle

Ari nih appointment sekali lg dgn dr hamid.since ari nih hub tak dapat nak teman,lewat sikit saya pergi ke klinik..sambung tidur!hihihi

sampai di klinik,saya tgk punye la banyak kasut kat luar pintu.tp bila masuk dalam tak ramai plak.bila dh jumpa nurse baru tau rupe nye rabu pagi adalah operation time.so doktor memang busy and kena tunggu lama sikit.sepatutnya saya kena datang petang.saya tak tahu plak sebab masa buat appointment,nurse tuh tak inform.ari isnin pun doktor takde.

1 hour tunggu baru dapat masuk..1st time jumpa dr hamid.terus TVS..ada 3 folikel yg dah matang di belah kanan.belah kiri as usual x membesar..:(.dr hamid tanya if nak buat iui terus.saya kata x sbb esok saya nak travel.dia tanya holiday?berdua dgn hubs?double tick utk dr. hamid...yeayy!dia kata bagus..try natural dlu time holiday nih.dia suggest if kali nih x jd,amik clomid last then try natural lg w/out tvs.if x jd jugak then dia nk wat HSG then baru leh buat iui.saya dapat tanya sikit2 je sebab dia macam rushing.

bila keluar,dr aimy yg advice utk ubat2 so baru leh tanya lebih.this time saya tak amik pregnyl..hanya dibekalkan dengan Dexametheson (lbh kurang camtuh la ejaan dia) utk merangsang telur utk terus membesar dan pecah.ubat nih bleh tahan sampai utk next clomid.it's cheaper also..only RM5 compared to Pregnyl jab RM75.

saya juga tanya pada dr aimy pasal perut saya yang rasa tak selesa for a week after amik pregnyl jab arituh.dia kata it's normal.total charge for today is RM95.no consultation fee,

Esok saya dan hub akan ke KK..bercuti2 Malaysia.harap2 di samping berjalan..kami dapat menyelesaikan "misi" kali nih sbb kalau both dh penat berjalan paham2 jela..tersadai keletihan je nnt..hahaha.

till then...daaaa!

Jauh di mata,dekat di hati..

in my previous entry kan saya macam meroyan kesedihan sikit..ngadu2 kt hub nangis2..

so,ari nih saya dapat delivery from him..

part bunga saya ok lagi..bila baca kad,terus bergenang air mata...:(.He always know how to calm me down.still learning btw...:)

Ya Allah..Kau kuatkan la jodoh kami.

Terima kasih Abang..love u and ur delivery so much!

Shocked!

Quick update..

failed again...musnah harapan kami husband and wife kali nih!CD30 saya period.saya jangka kan dalam next weel.x sangka cepat plak..hasil dr clomid.terkejut betul saya..dh la husband tiada di sisi..sesungguhnya saya memang kecewa yang amat sangat.perasaan nye seolah2 sama ketika saya miscarriage dlu.setitik-2 mata sempat turun ketika saya inform husband through gchat.malu la nk menangis kt opis.tp sampai rumah..hati saya jadi mcm nk pecah.saya menangis semahu2nya sorang2..ditemani kain pelekat husband (husband mmg selalu tglkan any last pakaian utk dijadikan pengubat rindu saya).lpas tuh baru saya rasa lega..how i wish my hub blk malaysia cepat2!:(

so back to fresh again.mlm nih akan start makan clomid and akan call klinik hamid arshat for appointment.start smlm mcm undecided balik whether proceed tros with iui or not.iui dlu atau hsg dlu?what do u think?

last few days Groupon ada wat Promo Philip Avent punye botol susu.at 1st i ignore je..but then suddenly my husband informed me about it (he assumed saya x aware about the promo).so yesterday i asked him..what's his purpose?is it he want to propose it to my sister or wat..he said he wants to buy it for us.i like...what?speechless sgt2.selama nih saya jela mcm terover beria sikit kalo psl beli menda2 nih especially when it comes to psl baby.but yg nih..dia yg proposed,it's unbelievable!he said..murah and dia kan stingy sket!hahaha.so,saya akan tgk balik offer tuh today..and buy it if ok.well,benda blh thn lama..if xde tanda2 lgsg then we can give it to somebody else.

ok...got to go back to work.quick update la sgt kan!i've so many things on my plate right now..Ya Allah..permudahkan la urusan kami.camne nk pregnant kalo stress camniii...

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Visit to Klinik Hamid Arshat:TVS

perasaan nak update sgtla membuak2 tp nape malas sangaaat nih??x kira..nk update jugakk!!:)

semalam kami ke plaza damansara lg.bersamaan ngan CD15,klinik suruh kami dtg semalam utk buat TVS.nasib tak berapa menyebelahi kami semalam sebab sampai time technician tengah buat service.so kena tunggu lbh kurang 1 hour jugak la..husband pun macam bengang sikit sebab kena menunggu lama tapi nak buat camne kan..?semalam jugak buat file terus.previous visit dia just tulis2 kt atas kertas and takde kad visit.nurse kata if nk proceed buat treatment kt ctuh,elok la buat file terus.saya setuju jela..at the 1st place saya xtau procedure tuh sbb diorang takde cakap apa2 pun time 1st visit.

a'way,masuk bilik Dr. Aimi,dia terus ajak ke bilik utk scan.dah tau nk TVS kan,saya pakai skirt labuh lg semalam..senang!hehehe.bila dia scan..hanya 1 telur yg dh matang..lenlain ada tp lum membesar.b4 tuh doktor ada kate kalo nk terus buat iui pun boleh..but since hanya 1 telur je yg matang so mcm not worth kalau buat iui.elok la..saya pun belum ready utk buat iui lagi.ingt nak test pakai clomid dulu.

so doktor advise utk try natural kat rumah dulu within this 5 days.dia kate kalo nk try hari2 pun ok since sperm husband (yg test aitu) good.saya tanya doktor sbb dlm seminggu nih kesihatan badan saya x menentu.saya tak demam cuma perut rasa tak berapa selesa..especially after makan.penah aituh lepas makan..abis semua keluar balik.doktor kate tuh tanda dah nak ovulate..tp bagi saya tuh more on kesan clomid!hahaha.semalam jugak saya dapat pregnyl jab kt montot utk pecahkan telur..nasib baik la tak sakit sgt tp malu ah!!:).saya jugak dibekalkan ngan clomid lg if this time tak berjaya and period.tp dinaikkan dosage nya..iaitu 4 biji=200g.if telur matang banyak,saya ada choice utk terus iui (which saya belum decide lg).but if usaha kali nih berjaya,saya boleh pulangkan balik clomid and refund duit.

w/pun telur matang saya hanya 1 tp saya bersyukur sbb at least ada ruang utk kami berusaha.b4 visit doktor semalam,kami dalam teka-teki sbb husband saya nk out-station (suddenly) masa timing utk berusaha dah dekat.dia dah berura2 nak bawa saya kena sana sekali..tp spain kot,mau tak mahal meletop flight fare dia kannn.hati memang la berbunga nk g ikut sekali tp pkirkan ongkos n kesihatan tak menentu saya sekarang buat saya pikir banyak kali.when doktor kate sempat nak usaha before husband off to spain,saya lega.cuma dia pesan time usaha nih jangan wat keje berat which i assumed also travel jauh sgt pun tak digalakkan.so saya decide..x ikut husband ke spain.

bila dh dapat guide daripada doktor nih,kami rasa lebih yakin.sukses atau tak,belakang cerita tp ia sedikit sebanyak menaikkan semangat kami..at least.so w/pun saya rasa tak sihat sekarang,saya kena bertabah hati,kuatkan semangat utk berbaby dancing.husband pun pesan..minggu nih kalo rasa2 mcm sakit hati atau nak gaduh/majuk (aku la tuh) telan la dulu..sabar.nnt usaha tak pasal2 ke laut je.minggu nih pun diisytiharkan minggu tanpa memasak!hahaha.oh ye,visit kali nih cost us RM175..consist of TVS,pregnyl jab,clomid and KY.

pagi nih saya masuk ofis dalam keadaan lemau sangat2.sakit kepala..perot rasa tak selesa..isi perot macam menggeletek2 nk suruh bawa ke tekak.isk..kesan clomid kali nih memang betul2 luar jangkaan!

saya berdoa moga2 usaha kali nih menjadi..saya tak pasti langkah kami betul atau salah tp yang penting we've move 1 step ahead compared to yang sebelum2 nih..dan besar harapan kami kali nih.azam saya tahun nih adalah carry forward dari tahun lepas..nak anakkkk!amin..mudah2an tercapai!

p/s:maaf..no picture today.

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