Trauma by HSG

Happy Friday!

I took the whole morning today, thinking of the best sentence should i put here.

Sesungguh nya Allah Maha Besar, ini adalah bahagian utk saya

(reminder:this entry might be too long..)

My HSG procedure did not turn well

We arrived at Klinik Daya early in the morning, around 7.50am..

just to ensure any unexpected circumstances

Park at Metro Parking which charged us RM4.00 per hour.

While waiting the clinic's operations hour, kami jalan2 sekitar bangunan DBKL sambil beli light breakfast

Of course la saya takde selera untuk makan

Around 8.10am, i went to the toilet utk masukkan ubat Voltaren Supp which 1 of the reader told me it is to help reduce our pain.

Fortunately it was an easy process

Then i go to the clinic, to check if i can wait inside the clinic (i refer to sum1's entry on this as well)

Bear in mind, there is no chair provided outside the clinic

Be it in DBKL's receiptionist or at pathway

The only area is at bus stand in front of the building

Nasib baik nurse tuh bagi masuk

At that time, we are the only and 1st patient

In my mind.."owh..takde org.boleh je kot datang lambat td..."(underestimate ok :))

We give the appointment letter and wait

The doctor arrived around 8.40am and my name was called at 8:55am

I changed my skirt and panties with robe provided

Siap salah pakai lg...hihihi

Then baring kat atas katil besi and wait for the doctor

rase nye 20-30 min i kena tunggu dia.

when he came,dia "proses" kan bwh kite tuh

Initially i don't felt any pain..because it feels like during my Pap Smear test

lama2..dah start rasa tak selesa, senak and pain

he took a very long time to ensure the equipment get in my womb (correct me if i'm wrong)

he's not rough doing his job but it's really painful

he keep saying..bukaan sempit,cannot go through

at that time i tried my best to give full cooperation..jgn keraskan badan!

then he started stress.he asked for break and will call me again

changed to my cloth..pakai pad

dekat robe tuh ada kena darah i sikit

i keluar2 tgk ramai gile patient tengah menunggu

when i saw my husband's face,terus rasa nak menangis

my hub ajak borak kt luar..then i cerita sambil nangis2

he advised me, if i can't bear it anymore then we just stop

i didn't agree..i'm already halfway and i won't give as that early

after 15 min, my name was called again

this time lebih lama

i can see doktor hampir putus asa

me also start crying sambil baca doa tak putus2

it feels like i was there for the whole day

seksanya hanya Allah je yang tau

conclusion..he already used 3 methods to do the procedure and finally he has some findings

after the session end,i asked from the nurse to give me 2 days mc because i become traumatized 

it's really painful

although the doctor and nurse give compliment for my patience during the procedure being done

actually, for normal process saya just kena ambil result and refer to Klinik Hamid Arshat

but since i'm a special case, the doctor would like to have consultation with me

he said that he did not satisfied with the earlier result

after had longer thought, he found the answer

my tubes were blocked..both of them!

but since he's not O&G doc,so leave it to Dr. Hamid to advise

we went to Klinik Dr. Hamid after we had lunch at Sogo (sempat lunch je)

sampai klinik during lunch hour and need to wait

when the times come, we're the 1st patient as well

Dr Hamid takde,ade emergency case kat Hospital Pantai

so i proceed with Dr. Aimy je

 Dr Aimy pelik my tubes were blocked because i got pregnant just a year ago

how it did happened..Allah je yang tau

if dia tau,awl2 lg dia dh start suruh buat HSG test

However, she give us 2 options since after scan memang takde fibroid

1) Operation - Laparoskopi, D&C, HSG, implant tube if necessary, cost about RM6-6.5k at klinik hamid.if at Pantai RM9k

2) IVF - RM20k but not guaranteed success

when she explained, i start crying

it was unexpected!

I've never imagine, i'll go through all of this

my husband would like to do another HSG test for 2nd opinion

but doc sympathy to me..i'm suffered!

she asked us to think of it and call back after we make decision

From there, i've already found my ultimate goal

i want to cure my root problem and operation is the best

my husband give the 3rd option which adopting child

but i refused

i want my own babies selagi i boleh

i understand my hub's concern

he doesn't me to suffer or in pain

now, we're finalizing the date

takut memang takut...sangat2

but i've to sacrifice and redha dengan ujian Allah

if this jalan yang saya kena tempuh to get babies, i will

i know there are thousand couples yang facing bigger problem than mine

it's just how we manage it

Ya Allah, give me strength to go through all of these