TTC life started

After keguguran last january, i was thinking and read on websites mentioned yang it's more easier to get pregnant again.but i'm wrong.we've tried to do it naturally but no signs..:(.to make it worst,berat badan saya bertambah2.sedangkan amount yg diambil sama je dari sebelum..maybe less. 1 of my friends told me that if kita pernah mengandung then lemak2 memang senang tepu dan susah nak dipecahkan.then i dah start risau..but disiplin still x cukup kuat!hehehe

after 4 months tried to conceive naturally, i started realize yang Allah akhir nya pilih saya untuk jadi salah seorang yang diduga olehNya.saya adalah salah seorang di malaysia yang susah untuk mengandung.saya bukan seperti kawan2 lain yang mudah dikurniakan zuriat.saya redha..tp saya taknak berputus asa..

then i started thinking of to get advice from the doctor again.yela..advice dari segi is it too soon utk start treatment watsoeva.then we went to the same doctor, klinik suraya.bnyk advices & options yg dia bg utk kitorang pilih..

               1) turunkan berat badan

                   yang ini memang saya sedia maklum.saya sendiri risau dengan berat badan sekarang.

               2) go direct to specialist

                   since this klinik has limited kelengkapan,so the doctor ask if ktorang blh g direct ke specialist; 

                   either govt ataupun private.LPPKN should be fine since i'm not ready utk invest tros ke private 

                   sedangkan hasil nya lbh kurang sama.soal cepat atau lambat je.the doctor gave us reference letter 

                   untuk kitorang bawak during our 1st visit to the treatment centre.we can start whenever we're 

                   ready.takde istilah cepat atau lambat sgt..

               3) take clomid

                   mcm biase 1st treatment yg doktor blh bg adalah clomid.en asben did ask the effect of taking 

                   clomid thenm said there are possibility of dapat anak kembar and also effect to mood swing yang 

                   tak menentu.part kembar ok..part mood swing tuh en asben paling takut!hehehe.

then, she scanned my tummy and everything was fine (during my 1st pregnancy, ada cyst).so we planned sementara we take clomid,myb we can start buat appointment with LPPKN sbb takut waiting list panjang sangat.

but,bile dah balik and buat kira2..during that time dah nak period.bile period buat kira2 untuk waktu subur plak.agak susah nak kira sebab period cycle tak tentu.kejap 36,kejap 40 hari.tp plus minus..ermmm..kena time en asben g german plak.dangg!last2 decide simpan clomid dlu..tunggu next period baru leh makan.

at the same time,LPPKN pun kitorang tak call...ntah nape tak gerak.maybe bile dh start mkn clomid baru excited balik kot..mudah2an..

daaa...

The history of it

Hi..

Let us continue yaaa..

After get married for 1 year, we decided to seek advice from the doctor.we didn't go direct for specialist but klinik utk kaum hawa, Klinik Suraya at Shah Alam. We met Dr. Normaliza..muda,cantik & pandai bergaya.lagak gaya mcm bukan doktor pun ada!hehe.but she was very nice and again sama kan i macam muka pelakon popular...haha..tipikal!

The day we met her, she adviced me to do pap smear test.but since i was at the end of my period so takleh buat.but she did scanned my tummy and detect mcm ada kantung.i was like whattt??she asked me to do the upt test and of course lah negatif kan?then she asked to come the week after..if possible then can do the pap smear test.

A week after, i already bersih and bersama.i went to the clinic again and did the same procedure.time tuh macam ada keluar darah sikit.after buat upt test..she said -ve.kitorang tgk together time tuh.saya pun mcm blur and boleh agak negatif sbb lum sampai waktu subur pun kan.but tibe2 she said...eh,macam ada double line nih tp blur sket.saya macam terpinga2..en asben oso.then dia advice dtg lg after seminggu..time kuar dr bilik doktor pun still terpinga2.seriously,time tu mcm takde perasaan..blur je.macam tak percaya.

tomorrow morning tuh saya buat upt test lg,kali nih more clearer.this time baru saya n en asben percaya.but since mcm ada bleeding sket so we went to KPMC.unfortunately doktor yg bertugas was doktor llaki muda yang takleh advice anything and set kan appointment dgn pakar for us.since on that day ktorg dh plan nk bercuti,so tros jela g..sementara nk tgu hari appointment.tp ati nih x sabar coz still bleeding (even though x banyak sgt) so we shortened our vacation,blk and find any specialist at our area..found TMC.

alhamdulillah..ada tapi doktor lelaki cina.after interview ngan staff nurse dia,doktor cek.tros cek through 'V'.tp dia kata x nmpak ape2..kosong.so then br dia srh wat upt..mcm pelik sket procedure dia.show +ve.so he's confirmed yang saya pregnant cume it's too early so dia srh dtg lg next week tuh utk cek lg skl.kuar tuh br kitorang terkinja2 happy sambil nangis2.mmg sungguh x sangka..bersyukur sgt.but then still ada bleeding.

sementara wait for next appointment,balik kampung semua.then start la morning sickness, sembelit sume.but ada satu malam ahad tuh suddenly rasa mcm cramp sgt..baring sume x jalan..sampai abis en asben kena marah..sori!dh minum air zamzam,semayang..time basuh pinggan tiba2 rasa 'PLUP' kt bawah tuh.hati dh x sedap..nangis2 kt en asben sbb rs mcm dh gugur.cepat2 jumpa doktor..tp doktor biasa je.dia kata it's normal..jgn risau2 sgt.br rasa lega sket.siap mcm marah2 lg..dia xtau ke kite tengah risau!!!

esok nya,g opis terasa sakit2 pinggang..lenguh sampai rs takleh duduk.g klinik suraya & they give me 1 week mc n ubat kuat rahim.rasa selesa sbnr nye g klinik suraya sbb confirm semua doktor perempuan.sampai appointment specialist still sama..rahim kosong.day by day and do every test semua,with all tears n pain lastly resulted that the baby tak menjadi.consider as failing pregnancy.

sedih..tak terucap.Allah pinjam kan nikmat tuh sekejap sgt rasa nya.tp alhamdulillah..Allah bagi kemudahan untuk melalui nya.tiada seksaan sakit dan jiwa kami pulih dgn cepat.

sesungguh nya apa yg terjadi ada hikmah-Nya..

Wallahuahlam..

Hi there!

Assalamua'laikum..

After considering about opening new blog again and again, finally i decided to open this blog.it's only for TTC journey purposes.it's not something to proud of but as a human being, i need a platform to share it like other TTC members without recognizing who is the writer.

Everytime i read TTC's blog, the 1st Q in my mind was..dah berapa lama diorang kahwin?it's a natural feeling.like mine..we have been married for almost 1 year and six months.to compare with other people, i know lagi ramai orang yang lebih lama berkahwin like 10 years married but still belum ada rezeki.but i don't want to take risk tunggu lama2.

I'll explain about what happened in this 1 year and half later in the next entry.

Since in my huha blog is being read by my close friend, i want to keep this blog as private.so that i can write secara bebas about my feeling, sharing process i'm gonna through,the pain and almost everything with all TTC members.sifat normal perempuan kan suka share everything.hopefully no one recognize me but if there is any please respect and keep your mouth shut up.

Nice to meet all of youuu!!